Grief Crashed

Grief crashed upon the shore

The wind blew with wickedness

The waves swept me off my feet

And the cross current sucked me in.

Tumbling turning beneath salty shore

The sand scraped my skin raw

A piece of me said swallow and drown

Instead I stood upon murky ground

She said she couldn’t teach me about grief

Because the reality cannot be preached

But now I had to grow wings and fly

Above regrets, guilt, and denial

How can I grow wings I sobbed

My heart is bitter, my emotions dark

I feel as if I have been robbed

My bonny prince is all I want

She grabbed my hand and pulled me out

She said I had to release my doubts

Live for him if you must

Help another in their hurt

Time passes as quickly as a lightning bolt

And memories I have to coax

Of a laughing lad reaching for the sky

Above me now, in the light.

I’ll never forget the life he led

And I strive for goodness for myself

My voice has strengthened, and I believe

I have grown bonny blue wings.

New song about happy Nik memories

The kids thought I could talk to the animals

I’d translate everything they said.

My daughter’s faith was unwavering,

But Nik questioned everything I said.

One day he came home with a secret

A new girlfriend he proclaimed

But he would not tell his mother

The little girl’s name.

I’ll whisper it into Bluedog’s ear

He piped up with a grin

His blue eyes blazed brightly

He was confident he would win.

Bluedog put his nose to my ear,

and said give the Mom a hint—

Let her guess the first letter

Of the alphabet.

Nik thought he had me

As I eagerly watched his face

When I got to the letter H

His grin folded like a case.

Bluedog sensed my triumph

And whispered in my ear

It’s that little girl Harmony

With freckles and red hair.

Bluedog says it’s Harmony

I said loud and clear

Nik shouted No it’s not

As he headed to the rear.

I’ll never have a girlfriend,

And Harmony’s a hog

But from that day he believed

Every word I translated for the dog.